Time keeps on ticking...

So, not much to discuss. Getting ready for Christmas, and I find myself terrified of the idea of being on pre-op diet over Christmas. Lapband surgery is scheduled for Dec. 29th. I guess it could be worse, my pre-op diet is low carb for 7 days then liquid for 3.
I need major willpower for this....LOL.

Good Health

Good health is worth it's weight in gold....my procedure went GREAT the heart chambers aren't nearly as enlarged as what was thought with the ultrasound. :) I'm so happy!! I'm ready to get healthy, get my lapband and move on with the rest of my life.
I've had a ton of health scares since Aug. and I'm really, REALLY tired of tests...my cardiologist wants to do one follow up with me in two weeks and that's it.
Now, if the work front was going as well....my boss basically told me he's fed up with the time off. I feel really guilty as I like the job but, my health has to come first. I get the strong feeling he doesn't want me taking any more time off (with the exception of the lapband procedure being done in Dec) unfortunately, I have several doc appointments due to the recent surgery and heart scare. UGH! Not sure what to do about this, DH tells me to walk away if I have to, but the money is nice and I honestly enjoy the job, my boss is the kind of man that doesn't tolerate weakness well.

Sheesh

Surgery on the 13th went great!! They found a pretty large cyst on my ovary during the procedure so my surgeon called in someone to remove it. I can't help but wonder how long I've had that sucker....
Anyway, in the midst of all this mess I find out I have 2 enlarged heart chambers (upper chambers). I'm going today to have a TEE which is basically where the doc takes a closer look at my heart via a camera being shoved down my throat. I'm THRILLED!! (not)
I'm scared because normally when the upper chambers are enlarged that is an indication of a hole. I don't have a murmur or anything, so I'm hoping this is just from rapid weight gain and I can do something about it.
I'm going today.....the procedure is at 2pm but I have to be there at 10:30am.

Work

I'm letting work stress me out. I think I have the problem of trying so hard to please that I end up doing less then I could.

I don't know, I'm beginning to feel like I'm letting my boss down and it's because I should've given it some time before I went back to work. Still so many health things to deal with, including mine and my mom's. :(

Sometimes I feel like he thinks I'm over-exaggerating my situation or something...I wish he could KNOW that's it's really this much of a pain in the ass to live in my house, LOL.

Nov 3rd

Today would've been the beginning of my pre-op diet, had I not had a gall bladder filled with stones. I'm a little sad, but I've decided to try and eat healthier and maybe drop a quick 10lbs before my gall bladder surgery.

Remember to go VOTE today or tomorrow! It's important :) I'm going to try and go tonight, but I'm sure I'll end up in line at 7am tomorrow, lol.

Well....Shit

So I call my surgeon's office to get the results of some pre-op tests I had done on Friday. I got some LOVELY news....
My Upper GI was fine, I have TONS of gall-bladder stones and a cyst in my kidney (the cyst is no big deal, apparently). WTF?!?!
I was told by my surgeon's nurse that now he wants to remove my gall-bladder, wait 6 weeks and do my lapband (doing them separately decreases the chance of infection).

I can't believe I've hit another snag....I'm still having surgery on Nov. 13th, it's just not the surgery I wanted...

Damn, I'm so sad.

I have been a bad girl....

So I haven't been keeping up with my blog...mainly because I have "last meal" syndrome. I feel so guilty about my eating habits I don't even want to type about them. I seriously almost sat down tonight and ate THREE cupcakes...who does this??

*sigh* My DH is keeping me in check (because I begged him to)...he said, "Are you sure you want to eat those?". I felt ashamed...I'm apparently not normal because NOBODY I know eats THREE FUCKING CUPCAKES in one setting.

God help me.

Pre-op diet starts 11/3. I need to calm down.